i’m driving around the block
every night
searching for ghosts
my past lives lived
past lives gone
into the wind
never to return again
i remember them all so vividly
and wish to forget
so i can live anew
a fresh start
with no regrets
i’m driving around the block
every night
searching for ghosts
my past lives lived
past lives gone
into the wind
never to return again
i remember them all so vividly
and wish to forget
so i can live anew
a fresh start
with no regrets
let the toxicity go
rid yourself of your leaves
grow anew
again
and again
’til you can breathe once more
let it all go
become stronger
despite the pain
you’ve made your decision
and i’ve made mine
our paths will never cross
my heart will remain
broken
it’s not your fault
my heart’s been broken
for a long time now
the pieces keep getting
smaller
and smaller
one day
they’ll just be
finite dust,
disappear
into outer space
My heart shattered into smithereens that late September night. That night, under dim streetlights, my heart broke. It had already been in pieces, so I don’t know how it broke further. But it did. The pieces were unrecognizable.
There were tears, a lot of them. Warm and quick, they slid down my face. They hurried, furious with the destruction of my heart. My tears had warned me to cage my heart but I was too naive and soft. I believed my heart could be mended. I believed that this time was different. I thought maybe this year, this chilly night, would bring forth happiness. Instead, my tears laughed at my stupidity, strolling carelessly down my cheeks. They couldn’t believe the joke I had become, that I had let myself get hurt once again. The pieces of my heart are too fine and fragile now to be put back together. It can never be the same, whole again.
we locked eyes
for just a second
and in that second
all of our memories
came rushing back
just for a second
and only a second
because now
things are different
I have green hair
a new life
and you are no longer
wonderful
months later
i think of you
a green field
full of flowers
you’re standing in the middle
calling out to me
i turn away from you
take off in a run
as you always do
you’re not behind me anymore
you don’t want me
i stop to look back
stare at you in defeat
why don’t you want me
anymore
breathe in
and out
let your troubles go
don’t wonder how much hurt
you would’ve saved yourself
if he never happened
don’t think about the
breaths lost
sleepless nights
losing yourself
because of one person
don’t remind yourself
of those bad times
it’s all over now
I can’t force you to love me
I can’t force you to forget about her
your memories of her
are everlasting
I can’t stand in the way anymore
I can’t be your stand in
on standby
I can never be her
she’s everything I am not
and this entire time
you were never mine
a full circle
to complete the end of it all
let this be a lesson
to never fall in love
to never complicate things
take life one day at a time
listen to your mind
and not your heart
your heart is a foolish thing
forgive and forget
and move on
from him